The last day you loved.

Will today be the last day you drink your beer,
the last day you search our rooms frantically looking for just that one sip of alcohol...
the last day you see your family ,
the last day you make me worried sick
for you do not know what you are doing,
you deny you have a problem,
but it is clear to me and everyone else.

Will today be the day I loose my brother, and my friend?

Will you drink too much,
or drive,
how about a fight?
Will you think your unstoppable?
How about your problems ,
Will they cause you to do something stupid?
How much will you regret it all?
Will I be the one to find you?
How will I live without you?


I hope today will not be your last day.
For you do not understand the love I have for you....

I cannot believe

Almost everything you told me was a lie.

I thought I could trust you.

FEMMINISM .

does not mean woman beliving they are superior to men. Pride is not a advocate of equality.
I will tell you what it does mean though, femminism is not limited to one definition, nor can it be classified under one category.

The womans soul is a complicated little thing. It does not exist physically but is highly present emotionally. Every thought and action passes the mind and the soul, the mind thinks logically while the soul thinks conscioulsy. What im trying to get at is when a woman has respect for her soul she understands right from wrong. Right being everything that betters a woman and promotes success. Wrong being everything that is disrespectful to a woman or degrading in anyway. Being a femminist just means you want to be a sucessful woman. When you let men call you a bitch, or show off your body to just anyone, when you partake in promiscuous acts and mislead men, you are not respecting yourself or your soul.
You are not born a slut, you are taught it, and it can be untaught.

Social roles play a huge play in this theory, main objective is not to set goals as a mans woman, set goals independantly. There is no need to rely on the presence of man to reach a point of happiness. Get a good education and support yourself girl !

Another point is that woman in other countries do not have as much say as we do in the western world, we need to support woman all over the world for they do not understand what its like to have a education, to choose who they want to love , to work for thier own money , to feel hapiness. Freedom is a right, they should have the freedom to choose.

Feeling like you have acomplished something in life as a woman, or a man with too much estrogen ;) is what being a feminist is all about.

be strong, set goals, succeed, be proud of who and what you are becuase at the end of the day it's all your choice.

femminism<3 ftw.

Je veux ton amou

translated to I WANT YOUR LOVE ,

I am so deeply in love with a boy named Joey Jaworski ,

he means the world to me and so much more ,

I actually believe I found my one and only soul mate,




I Emily, take you Joey to be my husband, my partner in life and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as we both shall live.


kocham cie , tak bardzo !



my past relationships seem like a joke now, misstreated, cheated on , emotionally thrown away, but it doesn't matter anymore i have you for the rest of my life.


well the truth is, you had me at hello. Even while I was in a realtionship with another, you still stood out to me, funny how life works out, who would have known that one kiss on jamies kitchen floor could lead to such a beautiful thing.I cherish ever moment we spend together!


nothing seems to matter when I'm holding you, you take my breath away. I still get butterflies everytime I see you.



oh man oh man

you mean so much to me !!!!<3<3<3

Lets go way back .....

Am I supposed to put my life on hold because you don't know how to act and you don't know where your life is going.Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying?


You will be working at mcdonalds for the rest of your life... so enjoi!



"Cut my hair 'cuz it reminded me of you
I know you like the long 'do,
had to switch my attitude up"

I know this sounds a bit odd but because of you, I am a changed person. My out look on life changed, and so did my hair. lol ya it sounds dumb, but it makes sense to me. I feel so much better about myself.



everything you told me I wasn't, I am now.

you are sooo 2008!






<333

I feel like

everything i've cared for is leaving me to lack of time.

I have no time for even myself, life revolves around school, work, and homework.

I want to try my best at everything and I get caught up in it all.

(Hence the reason this blog hasn't been updated in ages!)

anyways, I miss my family, my friends, and my social life.

Im losing it all.

I love you and I miss you.

LISTEN UP GIRLZZZZ!

I've been looking around Windsor lately, and I see NOTHING!!! Girls with out goals, girls with no respect for anyone, or themselves!These are the girls who wander from group to group, HOPING to feel like they are apart of something.
But those groups leave you, your boyfriend ditches you , and hoenstly, nobody gives a fuck. What are you left with?
YOURSELF.
sorry ladies, stop being so common and so cheap!!!!!!!!



You need to start believing in yourself,
YOU are the one who is always gonna be with yourself .
not cho man!!!!!or even your friends!

be real to yourself,
you go around in big heals and little mini skirts,
but you dont even know who u are!
The lies, the shit talking, is all part of your barbie plastic plan,
WHICH BTW is pure scum of the earth.

I love when i see gurls who are comfortable with what ever, easy going gurls, girls with OPINONS! girls with AMBITION!
self control and SELF RESPECT.
unfortunatly, theres not many.

Go out and make a difference,
your worth it ,
and you can be proud of who you are and what you've done.

Concrete Prison

new york ,

As I type I'm on a plane ride home, observing the view , and recapping the time I have spent in new york. I do realize the time I've spent in the concrete prison was worth it. I learned a lot about myself and the people who actually care for me. I mean I didn't find myself in some big city, I already knew who I was. But for all you who actually care for me, I now know how much I mean to you , and how much you mean to me. I love you.

At first I didn't think I was going to get much out of this trip, what was I going to go see, a bunch of buildings and stressed out people walking the streets of Manhattan?, oh cool. I could have seen that in a movie... Well it wasn't about that, this trip I realized what true love is , love of family, love of others and most importantly love of self. I never really took the time to see what it really was.
I'm glad I was able to experience such a thing.

Something else occurred to me, once I left for my trip, anything anyone said back home didn't matter anymore, people could talk until their jaws cramped, but it wouldn't even bother me, not the slightest bit.

New York is a concrete prison. Fulled with stressed people, each going somewhere. But where are they all headed? Hundreds of people walk the streets of Manhattan, It really hits you, each one of these people are going to a different place, thinking about different things... funny how a few buildings have such a effect on people.
It was rare to see grass, I like my nature..

My uncle owns a few businesses in new york , and i was able to see how something like that can rule your life in New York. Whats the point of having so much money when you don't even have the time to spend it ?

Sure, New York is a fine place to visit and get cheap shit from, but I would never want to live there, well unless I married rich and was set for life.. other then that no way!
People live their like a infestation of insects,
Roaming the streets for something better,
only to find fake happiness money.

This is not the life for me.

DONATE

im leaving for new york on thursday,
im going with basically 6 dollars in my pocket,
to make it worse they are candian dollars.
I have to pay for my own hotel,
and I already bought my tickets there
on top of all this I leave one day before I was suposed to get paid at work.


cool.
hahaha, im sure this is will be fun ......

donate like 3 dollars
if you donate more then 10 bucks or 10 bucks I'll pay you back.

:)
ahahaha


and i will feed only ONE of these children when i get home.
ONLY IF YOU DONATE .

happy easter

church is not my game,
but i went for my mom.
little did i know it was going to be 2 annd a half hours.

you could probably understand my anger ,
so much anger inside of me
i took my moms chocolate easter bunny
and ate half of it.

hahaha,
she was pissed.

oh easter.

WINDSOR

is full of slutty trash,
and its time we take out the garbage.

CLOSE YOUR LEGS AND TAKE UP A HOBBY!

project pure
April 20th,2009.

xxx

naw im not straightedge, but to tell you the truth drugs and alcohol aren't my bag of chips.I've decided im going to stay away from all of it for a pretty long time, I really see no point in putting toxic into my body, and making myself look foolish infront of people.

-It also has to do with self respect. I'm tired of seeing girls with so much potiential throw everything away. Get drunk every weekend, and fuck a buncha guys, lets see where it gets you :)

-Being drunk is not a excuse. Don't drink to run away from your problems, because they come back when your sober.

"HI, I KILLED 45 PEOPLE"
"omg ! thats terrible!"
" BUT DON'T WORRY I WAS DRUNK!"
"oh in that case what ever, no biggie."

- "Oh my god! im sooo drunkk lolzzz" she says as she trips over herself and spills her drink.
You don't always need to be the joke.
Maybe one weekend you can try being yourself, instead of a alcoholic beverage.

You can honestly make fun of me as much as you want for trying to live a healthy life, and do something productive. I know it may not be the cool thing to do , or what everyone else is doing, but it's my decision. Im not gonna bash you from drinking, but if your over doing it, and your a friend of mine, you'll hear from me.

-I'm also tired of seeing the guy I used to call my best friend and look up to, drink his life away. I miss my brother, things just aren't the same with him like this. I don't want to wake up to him dead one day, without spending a day with him the way he used to be, when he was my brother.
I haven't given up on you, and I never will.

When drugs have touched your life the way they have mine, it's not fun and games anymore.


PURE-
by not drinking,
by not smoking,
by not being a whore,
by being armed with a mind.

a few days without

being able to write down how I feel blows.

-first of all, I will miss Jamie so much, finally I meet someone who is basically my other half, and with just my luck she is getting taken away from me. I never knew i could trust someone so much, and actually love someone this much, ya it sounds like im married or some shit. She means so much to me , it really hurts me to see her go.
" If you can wait till I get home, then I swear to you that we can make this last, if you can wait till I get home, then I swear come tommorow this will all be in our past, well it might be for the best".I just feel complete when your by my side".-ADTR.
But really , move back to Windsor, I need you.

-Someone has caught my attention<3333. Im excited to see where this goes, hopefully its not a another guy who will stand me up every weekend, But then again, I like that a lot, remember?.... :/ haha

- This week is gonna blow assshole. Since Jamie is leaving I decided to keep as busy as possible and i took every shift at work for the week monday-thursday and saturday. cool..
I haver plans for friday , now just the weekend?


- I need to figure out whats going on with a certain friend of mine, he's been acting a bit strange lately,


I like being laughed at after I tell someone my feelings. It sucks but im glad I have you as such a great friend.


I dyed my hair red, and its literally hell red. Im redying tonite. :l

The day I made a blog

Jamie you asshole,
I decided I actually wanted a blog.
for all the times I made fun of you for having one,
I apologize.

wubz you.


On a different note, I guess I was just tired of forgeting what I thought about, or did.
nobody writes anything down anymore, well like we used to. Its 2009. Gatta stay modern!

-marchbreak
- jamies
-mall with jamie and adam
-blah blah blah ,

recap on the weekend
OH YA , I was stood up, really fun weekend for sure :/
andd thats basically it,

note to self: you have bad luck with guys.
GIVE UP !!!!


From now on, this is what I will look like when I write my "blogs"